In My Mind

Last friday night mama who passed away 3 years ago, came in my thought. Maybe, because mother's day was approaching. I felt the ache of missing her badly. That week also, it was confirmed I'm pregnant. It was also the reason why I'm emotional on that certain night. My husband and I are very happy of the good news and I was wondering what my mom's reaction would be if she's alive. I can feel her spirit that night. Watching over us and smiling as if assuring me everything will be okay. I cried for I know, there's no substitute for a mother's warmth and comfort when a child is in pain and the thought she won't be there to guide me when I give birth and raise my own child and my baby won't know his grandmother personally. It is heartbreaking, right? And a mother's wisdom is priceless. For sure, I'll feed him with stories about his grandmom and how good a person she was.That way, the memories will stay. And I can perfectly recall how excited she was of being a grandmother in the future. Unfortunately, she didn't experience it.

We offered prayers for her last mother's day, we can't visit her because we're thousand miles way. But I know, wherever we go she's still there guiding us along the way.

We love you so much ma! And we missed you so bad.

Posted by jaren at 2:59 PM  

Labels: Family, mother